How much do we take before we strike back and loved ones are hurt in the crossfire? Do we swallow the mean and deliberate actions of others that they aim at us over the years, especially when we do not have the same blood coursing through our veins? Do we simply smile at family gatherings as though the skies are always blue and the birds are always singing a sweet tune? Act as if nothing is wrong, that we have not been wronged?
Indeed, others that we love are sometimes a bit wounded when we finally strike back because we have held in the negative attacks on us for so very long that by the time they rise to the surface our emotions can be quite explosive. We may even voice our hurt quite loudly on a blog such as this, in a VERY public forum.
When grown-ups sling mud it gets quite ugly... it was an ugly, messy, spewing of volcanic mud that had laid under my skin for quite a few years and it's eruption may change feelings within the family but in order to be healthy we sometimes need to take care of ourselves first. Life is too short and I decided to get selfish and finally think of myself first.
And so the winds of change shall blow and in time I can only hope that those who have been caught in the crossfire will heal and understand. I hope they remember that I love them very much.
6 Of The Groovy People Said:
Uh-oh - this doesn't sound good. What happened?
And yes, I've swallowed a lot of mean and deliberately ugly things over the years; I still do.
No one ever said the High Road was the easiest route to take.
I do know what you are talking about!
I also swallowed a lot over the years from my side of the family.
Good luck and yes, take care of your self.
Pam
musta been politics... :-)
After taking abuse from friends or family for years it is so freeing to finally let loose and empty yourself of all the crap they have been slinging. Don't beat yourself up. You do what you have to do. Love ya!
I hear ya. Took a road so high so often that I've gotten prone to nosebleeds...
In the end, we have only ourselves to blame if we allow others to make us miserable. I hope everything works out for you and in the end it will be best for everyone.
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