Friday, December 11, 2009

Not So Alone

She cried in her small apartment every night not knowing what to do with herself even though long time friends were calling to come join them in their holiday celebrations. Not wanting to be that 'fifth wheel' in the group, knowing that the others would all be gathering in couples, she turned down all offers and stayed home alone curled up with a blanket, a bowl of popcorn, an onsetting case of depression, and watched an old black and white tear jerk movie from the 1950s. She blamed him, the husband who divorced her , even though it had been almost 2 years since signing those unwanted divorce papers. Two years, five years, fifteen years, and she's still not over him.





Ever known her? The woman who simply cannot get past her divorce and move on even though he abused her emotionally, or vice versa. Maybe she was the one who nagged constantly or lied about having paid the charge cards that she had driven up to tens of thousands in balances she knew they could never pay. The woman who knows he's totally messed up but wants him back anyway. The woman who blames it all on his new wife rather than accepting her own faults and working on her own issues.

Ever want to just hug whop her up side the head? Ever want to tell her what you really think of what she's doing to herself? Is she a friend and you don't want to risk losing her friendship by being honest?




I've often wondered about women who do this to themselves... wallow in their past rather than move into the present. They'd rather live in the memories of what they consider to have been 'the best years of their life' than take the chance of meeting someone new and risk giving their heart away once again.





If you know 'her', please tell her to get her life together and move on. It's difficult to be a friend to or even to like a wallower. She doesn't have to feel alone. Her friends are after all right here waiting for her.  Hand her a glass of wine and insist that she move on with her life because her friends love her, single or not.

The Holiday Season can be a difficult time for the heart, BUT... we are women.  We are strong.  Hear us ROAR dammit.

4 Of The Groovy People Said:

BlueRidge Boomer said...

Have known a few.....

Great post....

Enjoy.....LindaMay

Swampy said...

Been there. Done that. Great post. I remember my first Christmas when my girls went to their dad's and I sat alone looking at the lights blinking on the tree wondering if I would ever be happy again.
It's a difficult road with many bumps along the way, but it can be done.

Wsprsweetly Of Cottages said...

No divorce here, Di, but death is a different kind of devastation. Perhaps not rejection, but it is a place we cannot go and are unwanted. I wallowed for four years and my children thought it was permanent. Yesterday it was 12 years since his stroke. The fifteenth of December will mark the 12th anniversary of his death. I am not over him. But you know that already. I just don't go there in my mind.
Soon it became obvious to me that my friends were backing off. They didn't know what to do with one that could not go forward and I couldn't. Sadness was the only company I had.
And then I met a nice man, and he wanted me. Not one I "fell in love" with, but one I admired and knew I could learn to love. And I did. Once again, I lost him to cancer..but it was different this time. I moved forward very soon..within a year.
Yes, I've known someone like that.
Others also, who pride themselves on being faithful to the "memory."
Pat would have been disappointed in me had I "wallowed" as you so beautifully put it!
Great post, Di! But then all of yours are! :)
Many hugs to you, Sweetie!
Mona

smiles4u said...

You are so right. As someone that has been on both sides I understand the frustration on both sides. It's a sad place to be when your stuck down in the pits and can't seem to see beyond it.